Episcopal Lotus Flower in Bloom

Spirituality, Liturgy and the Tao of Inner Peace

Mad Love

I was scrolling through the channels last night and fell upon “For the Love of the Game” a baseball movie staring Kelly Preston & Kevin Costner.  He is a major league baseball pitcher that dates Kelly’s character and they are on again off again.  As he pitches what could be his last game, because his team has been sold, and his arm is giving out after 19 years of throwing fast balls — he relives the past years of their love affair.     

They are madly in love from the start really, but it’s all back and forth trying to make the long distance work.  He is in love first with baseball and often hurts her because of his single mindedness.  After each spat though they are drawn together madly ….they embrace they kiss like the world depends on the passions between them.  I found myself wanting that so badly and remembering when I had that mad-crazy love, the sparks, the passion, the can’t live without you feeling.  Then I remember it came with all the ups and downs, just like the passion in the movie.  The breakups, the tears, over and over the tears, but also the passion of coming together — that was magical, and that I miss.  I miss it bady, like a heartache, tears in the eyes, yearning, longing, miss it.  As I sat there drowing in the memories of my past,  a gentle voice reminding me of the heartache.   The fireworks were there but just like the ball player and the girlfriend of this movie there was so much heartache, breakup….drama.  See we can have that kind of love (for lack of better word) but it comes at a cost.  You have to make the yin to that yang so dark that the light then over shadows and you are ready for another round.  I am not sure if there is a point to this or just a cathartic writing for myself, but what I would say is the “movie love” can’t sustain.  What I have had to learn is a true lasting love is less moutains and valleys and more of a ocean of sustainability.  There is  a “high” with this type of love.  Just like there is a high for a heroin user, and it cannot be denied and it does feel amazing in the moment, but there is a valley of pain that you must endure to get down and back up again.  There is one love that is alwalys there, always stable, always sustainable, the love of our Lord.  He is the rock…the one who will cleft for me.  That doesn’ t mean at times I don’t morn the later….  So in conclution if your relationship is a wild rollercoaster, you might want to get off of that ride.  Second if you are looking for the love in the movies, I am hear to tell you true lasting love is much more stable and much less drama.  So many of us are addicted to that drama – best advice?  Just like the girl in the snow movie “Let it Go!”IMG_0139


 4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4-7

#staystrong #loveoneanother #itsajourney


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